Introduction: January 2010

Today I archived my previous blogs and deleted them from Blogger. I hadn't touched them in well over a two years and thought it was time.

So what am I doing blogging again? Well, the need to write for myself has arisen in my mind again. I just finished working on a project with a friend and collaborator Dan Best and have been working on a project for me. It also dawned on me that the reason I stopped blogging in the first place was because of the Job I had started and was worried that if I said anything it would be misconstrued and I would find myself out of a job that I greatly enjoy. I'm still working at the job, although the nature of my work has changed several times over the course of the three years and I'm just settling into my new role after six months, and I am sick of worrying about saying something out of turn.

I've also spent the last several supporting my fiancée as she struggles to build an art career. Anyone who has spent time with a creative person can attest that it's not all roses and can sometimes become quite difficult. Also, in supporting her artistic endeavours I found that a lot of my own creativity evaporated and the words that flowed quite easily had dried up like the mouth of the Murray. The words were still within the mind, they just no longer flowed through mouth and fingers to any purpose.

It's been in the last six months that I began to realise that I needed to do more for myself, personally and creatively. I must take time out of the life that I have built to indulge my own whims and fancies. I am calling this my Mental Health time. Largely this will consist of working on my own project(s), both writing and researching the project, and writing this blog.

I've hear said recently that the only purpose of writing anything is for the gratification of publication. This was from a Freelance Writer/Editor. I have to say that I disagree. I've worked with people who have chased this and similar goals and seen it do nothing but eat them up with the frustration that comes from reaching the audience (professional and public). I firmly believe that the purpose of creation should not be about reaching an audience, although that would be nice, but fulfilling that need within yourself to create something. This approach has been far more satisfying for me.

The projects that I've been involved with over the years have given me great satisfaction when they have concluded successfully and been given life beyond my involvement, yet I have also felt that same satisfaction with those projects that have been passed over and left on the scrap heap.

Looking around my study at the moment I see boxes filled with my writing and I am proud that it exists, even though nobody shall read it but me.

Now I must depart, for it is breakfast time and the Central Markets are beckoning.